Dear PSacramento,
So far I do get that from my experience and the Bible stories that having an experience with God that you recognize, leaves an unforgetable mark on your life. I have been trying to sort it out--because I can't deny it even though I haven't known just how to relate to God for years.
There are Bible stories of individuals who "drop out"essentially squander a moment they have, but not always forever. And if they recover themselves it is not by suddenly being "good" but by recovering their relation to God. God seemed to tolerate flaws in his friend David but he wasn't close to David when David operated in a way that David himself recognized as abusive. It is interesting to me that God did not like the bloodiness of David's own modus operandi. (I know it is widely held that bloodiness is God's modus operandi as well but God's distaste for having a temple built by a man of blood does make one wonder)
I know that words didn't teach me that God was truly a presence. Nothing I had ever heard prepared me to interact with God. The idea of fearing God was not even a functional part of my situation vis-a-vis God. I really can best relate to the idea of an ignorant old man wandering the wilds of Canaan, the blind man of John 9 or Legion in the graveyard than anything else.
The strange thing is these unique moments are always examples of God befriending individuals who had no highly developed theology. I can see David thinking about God and his ways. And I see God accepting good faith efforts of uninformed people really desiring to know God--but none of them befriended him through religious formulas.
Just thinking--"Love your enemies" is a way that someone does end up contending with God. It isn't a formula, is it? The postings on this thread show that. Also I'm thinking that that it isn't so strange to engage with God through Jesus. He made God available to the poor, the unlettered. I don't have a theology. I just have some good experiences and a lot of bad ones. So far nothing throws me clear of using the scriptures as a point of reference--I just don't reference them in the way that religion does. I'm trying to deprogram not just from the WT but from Orthodoxy.
Maeve